Sunday, November 27, 2011

Misty Eyed

Hi friends. It's been too long since I've shared my heart with you. Now it's time. It's way past time, and  I'm feeling tired..really really tired.

When I worked outside of the home, I dreamed of the days when I'd be lucky enough to stay at home. I'd keep every trinket in meticulous order, iron my husband's shirts, and bounce a laughing baby on my knee all day long.

Only one part of this fantasy came true.
I'm just glad it's the baby, because honestly, I can live without dusted trinkets and pressed clothes.

Today, I am more likely to toss out any trinkets (so I don't have to keep them in order), laundry is self-serve (I definitely don't iron), and I've been burning the midnight oil every--single--day creating silhouettes.

I am thankful for the opportunity to create art, and excited at the prospect of my quickly-growing business, but lately, I am finding the need to strive for more balance in my days. Selah is growing closer and closer to her first birthday, and I want to soak in each moment of her baby-ness before it all disappears.
I want to remember this little face, and I want nothing more than to give her a heritage of blessings. This is my wildest dream, far surpassing any success my business could ever find.

Maybe it's just the holiday rush, or my hormones, or my little baby growing up, but I'm feeling it all, and every now and then I have to stop and scoop my little heart right up off the floor.

Lots of love,
Lindsey

15 comments:

  1. It's definitely easy to think that working from home will be simple and calm and will leave you plenty of time to do what you need to do domestically, but the truth is it comes with its own struggles! I work from home sometimes depending on the projects my company gets, and I have to try really hard to stay active and not get bogged down with sitting inside and working all day. Sometimes I feel more depressed working from home than I did working in an office! As you said, it's all about balance...and I wish you luck in finding it!

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  2. Oh my goodness yes! Our little one's have to come first. :) This was such a beautiful post, Lindsey!

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  3. Visiting from follower's fest by way of the Wiegand's!

    much love, Kristina

    I'd love for you to come visit me at simplybold.blogspot.com

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  4. your blog is so cute :) what a precious baby you have! i'm your newest follower from the fest.
    XO
    erin

    sweetnessitself.blogspot.com
    {come visit me!}

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  5. I found you through your friend, Tricia, over at Mama Marchand's Musings. I love the image in your last line, scooping your little heart off the floor. It is so true! I have two daughters myself. One is 3 and the other is 4 months old. They sure do keep us busy!!

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  6. You are right on to stop and cherish every moment! It flies by so fast!
    Your SS

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