There was a woman quite far in front of us, also leaving the store, who suddenly spun around her heels. It was a fast reaction, almost as if someone had called her name and she was about-facing to respond. I really didn't know what she was doing. Then, the thought crossed my mind that maybe she had forgotten something inside the store. Not the case. She took a couple steps towards me and said, "You know... that's the sound I miss the most." A moment of silence lingered, and then she turned right back around and resumed walking to her car.
I felt like her words traveled in slow motion into my ears, loooong and drawn out, distorted through an emotional megaphone of sorts. I was frozen, and word after word hit my heart, bringing with it a realization that my little girl is growing up and that she will continue to do so.. and she'll grow and grow and grow until one day I won't hear that little infectious baby laugh anymore.
That woman in the parking lot felt the power of my little baby's laugh. She turned around in an instinctual reaction, in a fraction of a second, before her mouth even knew the words her heart was feeling. Then, almost as if she was actually taken aback by her own reaction, she shared her most intimate thoughts with a complete stranger. Oh the power of a mother's love. That little laugh is forever emblazoned in your heart.
I know there will be other sounds to fill my heart and home as Selah grows. She'll say 'I love you,' read books to her stuffed animals, and have make believe tea-parties filled with lively chatter. The treasured baby-ness will slowly transform into something equally as endearing and loveable. I know this in my head, but right now my heart can't help but feel like I'm holding on to that little laugh with the tightest of clenched fists.
Because, you know..the truth is, that's the sound I will miss the most.
p.s. Selah's first birthday is tomorrow
p.p.s. I began this fully intending to share Selah's birth story. That, dear friends, will come sometime after I dry these tears.
Lots of love,