I suppose I was in need of a software update for my soul, a new operating system, and a re-boot. Or at the very least a boot to the *you know where*
I should have known better. He promises not to leave us in our junk, and to forever continue this process of character refinement.
"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
A church breakfast meeting about marriage pulled back the curtain to show...Control. Judgement. Manipulation. A small-group gathering that evening brought confessions.. Shame. Gluttony. Despair. An evening at home revealed Pride. Dishonesty. Fear. I just wanted to shrink, shrink, shrink, and float away like a little speck of dust in the sunshine.
Funny how everything seemed grand the day before... but here, face to face with reality, my soul was so obviously and glaringly filthy. At the end of it all, (the confession, repentance, forgiveness) I felt stripped and raw, frustrated by my nature, and perplexed about whether I now felt free or just plain exhausted.
My questions were answered as I woke up this morning to the echoes of this verse in my heart:
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:23
Lots of love,