Thursday, February 16, 2012

Refinement

I would have been content with the amount of revelation and refinement that I received by 10am yesterday, but it seems the Lord had other plans for my heart. I have never experienced a day of such constant an intense face-on-the-ground conviction in all my life. This was not what I had planned for my day. I just wanted brunch with friends and maybe a nice afternoon nap.

I suppose I was in need of a software update for my soul, a new operating system, and a re-boot. Or at the very least a boot to the *you know where*

I should have known better. He promises not to leave us in our junk, and to forever continue this process of character refinement. 

"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6 

A church breakfast meeting about marriage pulled back the curtain to show...Control. Judgement. Manipulation. A small-group gathering that evening brought confessions.. Shame. Gluttony. Despair. An evening at home revealed Pride. Dishonesty. Fear. I just wanted to shrink, shrink, shrink, and float away like a little speck of dust in the sunshine.

Funny how everything seemed grand the day before... but here, face to face with reality, my soul was so obviously and glaringly filthy. At the end of it all, (the confession, repentance, forgiveness) I felt stripped and raw, frustrated by my nature, and perplexed about whether I now felt free or just plain exhausted.

My questions were answered as I woke up this morning to the echoes of this verse in my heart:

"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:23

Hallelujah.

Lots of love,
Lindsey

21 comments:

  1. Lindsey, thank you so much for your sweet comments on my shelf! I am super excited you found me because I'm stoked about finding your blog! I just read a few posts and I loved hearing about your heart and how God is working in you. And for the encouragement that daily walks are a challenge for people besides just me. lol. I'm pregnant (with our first baby!) and have really been trying to add a daily walk into my routine. Despite the cold (Iowa's fault) and the laziness (my fault). Anyway, sorry to write a letter... Just wanted to let you know that you made my and I'm glad to be your newest follower. :)
    Liz

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  2. Oh, and one more thing. One of my very good friend's daughter's name is Selah and I had never heard of anyone else with that name! How cool!

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  3. Beautiful post! Thanks for chiming in on my blog - I'm glad we've found each other. :) From what I've ready, your blog is heartfelt, and that is my favorite kind. Now I'm off to peruse a bit more!

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  4. Hi Lindsey! Thanks so much for stopping by my blog and following along. I'm returning the favor! =) Nice to meet you!
    Alesha <3
    http://tobless.blogspot.com/

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  5. Hi!! Thanks for visiting at The Latest Find!! I'm following you back, nice to meet you also!! =) Love your rose pic and your silhouettes!!
    http://thelatestfind.blogspot.com

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  6. Those are two of my favorite verses. God will renew us whenever we need it. {I just needed it myself actually...} Thank goodness for a God who causes us to confront ourselves and offers repentance than just unleashing His wrath!

    Thanks for stopping by Aprons & Ambitions. I hope we can be friends! And good luck with the walking challenge. You'll do great!

    Amy

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  7. Are you on a conference call with me and God right now? You speak directly to my heart here. Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving a comment. I must go and explore more of yours now :)

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  8. Thank you for your honesty. God used you to speak and encourage me! Blessings!

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